Blog of Epicness.

“It’s hard to stay mad, when there’s so much beauty in the world.

Sometimes I feel like i’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst.. and then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my life..”

I don`t know what I want to do with my life.

I just know I want to do it.

I want to see the world.

I want to meet every single person breathing on this earth.

I want to give everyone a hug or a handshake, & I want to make someone`s life a little easier.

I want to be different than the people I know because that`s what makes us beautiful.

I want to be absolutely ridiculous before I die.

I don`t want regrets.

I want to stand for something.

"If I could give everyone one piece of love advice, it would be once you find the one you’ve spent your whole lifetime searching for, don’t give them up without a fight. Never let them just walk right out of your life. Whatever you do, don’t ever let them go. Hold onto them with all that you’ve got, because you have no guarantee that they’ll be back. So, don’t make the mistake I have made. don’t just watch them leave. It could be the last you ever see them. Don’t look back on it and regret not saying the words you needed to say, or doing the things you needed to do. Because that feeling of regret will never leave you."

“I want your company.

The pleasure of your company.

I want your input on video rentals.

I stand there for hours, I can’t pick anything out.

I want someone to say goodnight to, a last call of the day.”

I’ve learned that people will

forget what you said, people will forget what you

did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

"Forgetting isn’t enough. You can paddle away from the memories and think they are gone, but they will keep floating back again and again and again. They circle you like sharks and you are bleeding your fear into the sea. Until, unless something, someone can do more than just cover the wound."

Take me away to a place where people no longer make me feel lonely

I don’t know what to say anymore.

My mind runs a blank every time I open up the page where I used to spill my heart. I used to have so much to say, now I can barely write a sentence. It’s you. You have that effect on me. You walked into my life and I can’t find a place for you just yet. I’m lost for words, yet my heart is screaming with things I wanna say to you.

And sometimes when your mind gets going, you just can’t seem to get it to stop. It’s like never-ending spinning, going around and around, thinking about those things you don’t really want to know about yourself. But you can’t get it to stop. The thoughts just clog your mind, your every movement. You can’t do anything without thinking, and eventually, you just don’t want to think anymore, but really,

it’s all you’ve got.

Nobody ever takes a photo of something they want to forget.

"Sometimes you have something you need to say, but you can`t, cause the words won`t come out, or you get scared & feel stupid. So if you could write a song & sing it, then you could say what you need to say, & it would be beautiful, & people would listen, & you wouldn`t make a complete idiot out of yourself. But all of us can`t be songwriters, so some of us will never be able to say what we`re thinking, or what we want other people to know we`re thinking. so we`’ll never be able to get the chance to make things right again."

~ Gilmore Girls

The heart is an amazing organ. The heart makes sure the body receives what it needs. But the most important thing about the heart is that it is an involuntary muscle. You can’t control who you love. You can’t control when you lose your heart. The only thing you can do is trust; Trust that the person who has your heart realizes its value.

"Life is about chasing things you think are truly worth it..

Even if they never happen."

I hope I’ve made a difference in your life; Significant enough to cross your mind at night.

“Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied at barely getting by. But, that feeling is a lie and if you just hold on; just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find the way and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes, someone to help us hear the music in the world. To remind us that it won’t always be this way. That someone is out there, and that someone will find you.”

- One Tree Hill

"It’s amazing because, when you’re a kid you see the life you want

and it never crosses your mind that it isn’t gonna turn out that way."

"What’s worse than wanting something you can’t have?

It’s not knowing what you want.

Wishing on all the stars in the sky for the answers to your questions, for something to believe in, someone to hold. Having absolutely no control over yourself, being caught up in a place you wish you were miles away from.

Being stuck somewhere between the past and the future, nowhere near where you should be - in the present.

Stuck in yesterdays and tomorrows, so far from home, far from everything and everyone you know and love.

The uncertainty could just about tear you to bits."

"Never look down on anybody unless you’re helping them up."

"Crushed,

by the sweetest lips I've never kissed

how you bring the tips and the warmest touch I've always missed.

Crushed,

by the softest hands I've never held

probably never tell,

you’re the strongest love that I've ever felt

Crushed,

that I havent ever let you know

how it always goes

cause I lose my nerve whenever you get close"

“You know what I want? I want to be someone’s reason for waking up, someone’s reason for going through another day. Just once, I want to be the one being wished for, I want a guy to say to himself, ‘I’m so lucky to have her.’ To put it simply, I want to be someone’s everything.”

I believe we write our own stories. & Each time we think we know the end - we don’t. Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance, & the peace that comes from knowing that you just can’t know it all. You know, life’s funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.

Time caught up with us & broke us apart, because now you found someone else. But that’s not what bothers me. what bothers me is that you left me & that I left you, with words unspoken & a story unread. Words that are still trying to escape my heart & reach out to you, words that don’t notice that time has past; words that still have meaning. What bothers me is that you didn’t see the tears I cried & you didn’t know that I lied when I told you I was happy. What bothers me is that you still cross my mind a million times a day & even when I’m sleeping, I can still hear your voice telling me how much you love me or how much you miss me & that’s the only time I’m ever happy. It’s when I’m reminiscing about you & dreaming about us. But when reality hits me, it just kills me. But the thing that bothers me the most is that all of this could have been prevented if I had just said something or done something, & the only thing that doesn’t bother me is that I’ve learned a valuable lesson; you don’t really know what you have until it’s gone."

Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. You know, it’s the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. Who’s standing next to you?

We stare at broken clocks, the hands don’t turn anymore. The days turn into nights, empty hearts & empty places. The day you lost him, I slowly lost you too. For when he died, he took a part of you. No time for farewells, no chances for goodbyes. No explanations, no fucking reasons why. I watched it eat you up, pieces falling on the floor. We stare at broken clocks, the hands don’t turn anymore.

You have no idea how hard it is to pretend that I'm okay with this.

“Don’t go for looks; they can deceive.

Don’t go for wealth; even that fades way.

Go for someone who makes you smile because it only takes a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

Find the one that makes your heart smile.”

"Je soubaite pour toi. I wish for you."

"In your heart, you know what is right & what is wrong. You know what will ultimately move you ahead & what will hold you back. Though you may be very good at rationalizing against it, the truth is evident when you make the effort to look for it. Though others may be skilled at talking you out of it, you know what is best for your life. Go with your heart. Listen to that voice inside you, the one which makes the most sense & which, in retrospect, is almost always right. In a world where deceit too often is just another strategy, develop a habit of seeing the truth with your heart & not just your eyes.. No matter who else might want to take credit for it, the fact is that you have succeeded in bringing yourself this far. And you are the person best equipped to move yourself positively into the future. The value of your life experience is not only in your mind, it is embedded in your heart. look at the world with all the good that is within you, & you will see it with sparkling clarity."

In this weird twisted way, I know you miss me liking you. not because I want to believe it’s true, but because you’ll never find a girl that can put up with you like I did; you’ll never find a girl who will care as much as I did, because no one will waste all their love on someone like you, like I did.

"The days will always be brighter because she existed.. the

nights will always be darker because she’s gone. & no matter

what anybody says about grief & about time healing all wounds,

the truth is.. there are certain sorrows that never fade away

until the heart stops beating & the last breath is taken.."

I realize now you weren’t strong enough to pull yourself out of the haze you fell into. There were days when I would have given anything for you to have just acknowledged the fact that I was alive, the fact that you were alive. I didn’t need you to laugh or to talk or to even get out of bed. No, I just needed proof that your soul was still buried somewhere underneath all that darkness. But you were nothing more than an abandoned hermit shell, hollowed of all self presence. You had fled the shore seeking different shelter from all the demons you’d yet to face. You’d deserted your body which was now an empty vessel of your self worth, and somehow, you managed to destroy everything you left behind, including me. Yet, despite all this, I can’t be angry with you. Because although I always said you chose the coward’s way out, you never did claim to be brave.